Avery Quinn – the little middle whose screams sound like they can make my ears bleed and who can go from 0-60 in .33 seconds flat. She’s also the one that runs to me when she sees me and sings a song she made up called “mommy, my best friend”.
Sometimes I feel like I’ve lost myself in motherhood. I don’t think I know who I am anymore outside of motherhood. I don’t know what I want to do besides mother, I don’t know what I like anymore and some days I hide in the bathroom and cry because of I’m overwhelmed with motherhood. I didn’t know how isolated and lonely I would be before becoming a mother and I don’t feel like I know how to do anything else besides mother right now. While I know that this is a stage and a phase (yes I know that the days are long but the years are short), I still feel this way most days … but little miss brings me back to joy.
I try to find the joy in everything everyday with success most days so I guess that puts me ahead of the curve?
Maybe I’m in a mommy cocoon awaiting my rebirth? Stay tuned.
Also, side note, I want chocolate cake
xo,
C
